Echo

A few weeks ago, I was asked the question "what do you love about yourself?"  I had no quick answer.  Well that's not entirely true...I gave my standard PR interview response which was met with a frank look and an even more frank follow up question to get at the truth.  I mumbled something about liking being a planner-head.  Here I am quickly approaching 30...'how can I not know myself?' I thought.  I guess I do like that I am a planner-head, but in actuality I am a bit embarrassed about it.  I don't love it and would gladly trade it for another more artistic talent.  Maybe singing.  Now that is something that I would really love.  Unfortunately I tend to sound like Marge Simpson when the music strikes me.  Don't get me wrong...my self esteem is OK.  It's just that this impending birthday has me being more reflective lately.

What I really like doing is helping people's dreams find a path to actuality.  Take Matt for example.  Here is a fantastic guy who had a dream of biking across North America for a good cause.  So we planned it out and now he is in Windsor on the Far & Wide Bike Trek.  This is part of a bigger dream to see an Autism Health Centre in downtown Hamilton.  I love that he had an idea and now it exists - in part because of what I do.

All of this has led me to the question of echo.  Is it possible that perhaps this tendency to stay behind the scenes and not the lead is in fact not necessarily a good thing?  Today I said to a friend "It would be a shame to live your whole life as an echo of someone else."  But isn't that what I am doing?  Instead of figuring out what I want, or my own dreams, I find someone else's and simply echo it.  Or maybe seeing other's dreams come about is in fact my own dream.  When asked "what do you want to do with your life?"  The immediate, instinctual answer is simply 'help people.'  That's all I want to do.  But I wonder if I will ever find an outrageous dream of my own to follow.

Comments

[miranda]

hmmmmm. good questions.

was one of your dreams, to take me as a date to a wedding!? see you are no echo!

haha!

in all seriousness thought, i PERSONALLY think that your dream to help people is a BEAUTIFUL and UNSELFISH one. you should be proud of that. But with that said, i encourage you to strive for personal dreams too! I bet they are there!! DIG DEEP!!

you rock.